5.10.2017

Dear Maggie,


Hey baby girl, it's me - your mama. I wanted to write this a few weeks ago, but it was so hard to formulate my thoughts and emotions while trying to get used to the idea of you not being right beside me for the writing of the post. You were the best blog sidekick [heck, you were an even better writer - your posts here and here are some of my all-time favorites!] It has been a little over a month since we said goodbye to you which also means that it has been a little over a month that I have missed you like crazy. It's truly amazing how much you impacted our lives little one. Eleven years with you was not nearly enough, but it was a darn good eleven years you gave us. 


You were bite size when we brought you home and really, you kinda stayed bite size your whole life. You were either a ball of fluff or the skinniest little deer on the planet, depending on your last grooming appointment. Thank you for always holding on to your puppy spunk and indulging me in my desire to have a child that was a little bit Junie B. Jones like. Your bright eyes and cute little pink tongue had a way with our hearts that will always bring a smile to our face. Your signature trait was your ability to stand on your back legs for minutes on end, dance around and of course, always convince us to put those little treats in your mouth. We're suckers, you were smart. Good one. 


Speaking of smiles to our face, you sure brought one to your cousin Ellie's. You two were the best of friends and it was always so much fun to watch you two get all crazy together, chasing each other, cuddling with one another, etc. I'll never forget seconds before taking your last breath and watching your ears perk up for one final time when we said her name to you.


Despite my outwards distaste for your countless kisses, I secretly kinda loved it. As tears fall writing these words all I can think about is how badly I wish I could scour during one of those licks again. 


You were the queen of getting belly rubs from your dad [and really, anything else you ever wanted #spoiled] and always made sure to repay the love to us by snuggling up on our chests, laying on our legs or draping yourself over our necks during the night. You could never be close enough and I miss your cuddly little self in ways I never thought possible.


Thank you for all of the times you laid right by my side on sick days, for all of the walks you indulged us in, the excitement you would exude every time we walked through the door, for greeting me the second I got out of the shower every day, for making your dad love something so hard and for allowing us to experience the phrase "a dog is a man's best friend" in the most real way possible.

It is because of you showing us how much joy and love a dog could bring into our lives that we decided to get two little brothers, Max and Ollie. You would think they are crazy, mostly because they are. Also, I owe you a huge thank you for learning to potty outside within a week. I think I took your easiness for granted, actually, I know we did. Yes, we love them like crazy, but even amidst the crazy with them, waves of emotion will overwhelm me, tears down my face and I just want you. You were my girl Maggie. Oh what I wouldn't give to hold you again. 


Last but not least, thank you for showing me passion, unconditional love and childlike excitement 24/7. My goal in life is to love something as much as you loved boat rides. Gosh, you loved boat rides. This summer and every summer will always feel incomplete without you out on the water, but you better believe we will live it up out there in your honor. 


You have such a handle on our hearts, forever and always. You were the best of the best. We miss you girlfriend, love you little pickle. 

Love, 

Your number one fan

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25 comments:

  1. Gee thanks Erin for making me cry at work. That's always awkward. But losing a pet is hard. Really hard. But remember, they are waiting for us at the Rainbow Bridge, and damn they are having fun up there waiting!! xoxo

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  2. Breaks my heart and makes me think about my Buster Brown- He's been gone 5+ years but I still miss him like crazy. There is really something special about dogs like Maggie and Buster. Thank you for the sweet post. I know Maggie is looking down at you and smiling!

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  3. Sweet Maggie is so adorable! It's the hardest thing ever to lose a sweet fur baby. Sending prayers your way! And thanks for sharing your sweet memories of Maggie with us!

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  4. I love that you wrote this. I lost two of my fur kids this year, 1 unexpected and sudden and 1 knew was coming. Regardless...it's never easy to say goodbye. It's those moments where you think I should do this for your lost one or you reach for them at night...it's hard and it sticks with you for quite some time.

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  5. Whoa, not the best blog post to read at work! Dogs really are the best thing on this planet. I know your little Maggie misses you just as much as you miss her. May we all learn to love like dogs love. This world would be a MUCH better place!

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  6. crying at my desk. so sorry for your loss, they really do steal your entire hearts.

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  7. Oh my gosh this is a wonderful tribute. We have a 14 year old lab mix and I dread having to say goodbye. I'm so sorry for your loss but I'm also grateful that you're the kind of person that can let (two!) more furry hearts into your home. You rock.

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  8. Oh girl, my heart breaks for you. This is absolutely wonderful that you wrote this to her, so special. I would be lying if I said tears aren't streaming down my face as I read this, I just can't imagine because I love my fur baby more than life itself too!

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  9. Snotting all over my desk! Gonna love on my pup a little more tonight in memory of that little pickle!

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  10. Dogs have all the best qualities of humans and none of the bad ones. I loved this!

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  11. We said goodbye to our first dog over a year ago and reading this post still made my heart ache. Pets are family, and sometimes the best parts of our family. I'm so sorry for your loss, but she was a lucky and clearly happy dog to be so loved. We'll see them at the Rainbow Bridge, right? Thinking of you! <3

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  12. Thinking of you, and feeling your sadness and pain. We lost our 8 year old sassy pup Sammy last week very suddenly. He's the first dog of my own that I've lost, and it's overwhelming, devastating, and hard to believe all at the same time. I know at some point the sadness and tears will be replaced by smiles and joy at the memories, but right now it just plain stinks and I just want him back. I'm firmly convinced that our dogs give us way more than we give them in return, and there is nothing quite like that unconditional love. Even knowing how hard this time is, I'd go through it a thousand times over in exchange for the joy Sammy brought to my life in the 8 years we were blessed to have him. I hope that happy memories gradually replace your tears, and that in the meantime your two new rascals provide entertainment and love that softens the blow of Maggie's loss. Xo

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  13. Such a sweet letter. gave my furbaby an extra hug in honor of your Maggie��

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  14. Bawling my eyes out!!!! What a sweet letter and memory to a pup well loved and so full of life. Thanks for sharing her life with us Erin!

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  15. This brought tears to my eyes. We lost our dog of 13 years last April and we still miss her! I love the quote that we love our dogs for a short time, but they love us for their whole lives!! :) Hugs!

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  16. Beautiful tribute!! I'm glad I'm home from work today because I also am crying and thinking of you and my Sammy I remember that day clearly 23 years ago and I will never forget my little man, he as Maggie we're our kids�� Thank you for sharing !!

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  17. Well I just bawled like a baby reading this. Man it reminded me so much of my little Stella and how I couldn't imagine my life without her. Thank goodness for dogs and the huge space in our hearts that they take up. Thinking of you as you relearn life without Maggie on your lap - although she'll obviously always be in your heart, and what a great post to tribute her :)

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  18. Definitely tearing up over this - such a heartfelt post. She sounds like such a great sidekick - dogs can make the very best companions and take up so much of our hearts. You shared such beautiful memories, it's so clear how much she meant to you and I'm so sorry you're not together any more.

    Caitlin
    wandererandwolf.com

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  19. What a sweet post, made me cry right along with you. I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope your new little ones bring you just as much love and joy as Maggie did!

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  20. I can't! Make it stop! I'm bawling my eyes out! What a wonderful momma you are/were to Maggie. Great post ��

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  21. I am so sorry about Maggie! Our pets are like our children! Even after kids come into our lives.

    On another note, are you still doing Stitch Fix? I haven't seen a post since January and I miss them!

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  23. This was really beautiful. Aren't they all special little angels in their own ways here to bless us with their presence? Thank you for sharing.

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  24. Wow, this about killed me. I just lost my baby girl, my little mama- Brandy- she was two days short of being 16. I feel pretty much exactly like you do in your post. I can see in the comments that most of us have been touched by a pet and feel their loss so so much, so dramatically. Their loss leaves quite a void. Thank you for sharing.

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I read and appreciate every one of your comments. Thanks for stopping by my space and sharing a piece of yourself on this huge ole internet. I meant that in the least creepy way possible. I'm just good at making everything awkward. Anyhow, thank you for your comments. They make me smile :)