2.21.2017

I Kinda Hate My Blog


In case you haven't noticed, I have had the worst case of writer's block for the last...oh, two years. Nothing like a little dry spell every once in awhile you know? The weird thing is I have so much I want to say, I just don't take the time to say it anymore. I used to be so diligent about showing up here every.single.day [the italics, bold and periods were put there to be overly dramatic and emphasize the daily part in case you didn't pick up on that memo] to write whatever the heck was on my mind. But then, over time I allowed myself to get busy with the other parts of blogging and well, I kinda forgot to keep blogging. It doesn't make a lot of sense when I say it like that, however, if you blog I am going to trust you know what I mean.

The thing is though, I miss it here. Like a lot. It's hard when you feel like you have this thing that you were once so proud of and then slowly over time you watch it become something that you don't really even like anymore.

Hi, I'm Erin and I kinda hate my blog. 

The other day I was doing an interview with our local newspaper [that makes me sound so much cooler than I am, believe me] and she was asking me about my blog back in the early days with forwarding to present day and talking about where it's at now from a growth standpoint. When you look at it out from an outsiders perspective, the growth of readership, the business that it has allowed to become, and all of the other positives makes it seem that it is thriving more than ever. And in a lot of ways, yes that is true. But in a personal, passionate, why I chose to start this blog in the first place way, it's quite the opposite. It's silly almost, but I didn't want to do the interview initially because I didn't want new eyes to come to my blog and think "really? people read her stuff? there is nothing of value here!" and walk away rolling their eyes. The thing is, I am that person who shows up, rolls her eyes, and walks away.

The past two years or so have been hard to balance this all. Between working two other jobs, trying to have a conversation or two with my husband every once in awhile, hanging out with friends in my spare time and other things in between, I haven't been able to give this little ole space on the internet the time it deserves, or at least the time I want it to deserve. Just the other day somebody spoke so true on my Facebook page when they said something along the lines of how they love me and think I'm great and all, but how about something different for a change. I read the comment and immediately responded out loud with "amen woman, I'm ready for a change too."

I don't really know where I am going with this post, other than to say that I am beyond excited to start blogging again. My goal for 2017 was to accomplish more while doing less. In a few weeks I will be able to do just that thanks to those three little words "two weeks notice" and guys, I am pumped. And scared. But I will talk about those emotions at a later date. For now,  just know that we'll get there. I want to fall in love with living in yellow all over again and I trust that the relationship is still there to be mended....blog, if you're up for it, I'm up for it.

And on that note, I feel like I need to go write a handwritten note with "circle yes or no" and hand it over to this blog. Fingers crossed it circles yes ;)


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25 comments:

  1. I circled yes! I enjoy your blog posts the most out of everything you do. I feel like that's where you come through.

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  2. I circled yes, too ;) And in response to whatever it is you're walking away from, cheers to new beginnings :)

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  3. Aww this post is so sweet. I totally know what you mean though. As a fellow blogger, I think our blogs are like plants. You have to water it, watch it grow and be in awe of what you cultivated. If we don't nurture it, it will die and that's a scary thought. I think you're on the right path Erin and just be patient with yourself. It's not gonna be an overnight thing, just enjoy the process of bringing it back to life. Everything else will fall into place <3

    http://bellaandthecity.com

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  4. I found your blog just before Christmas and I LOVE it! I can't wait to see the new stuff :)

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  5. I love reading your blog but I totally feel you! And sometimes I feel like it takes everything in me to get up the easy posts, which to me are my Stitch Fix reviews or "currently" posts. I want to love and feel passionate about my blog as well as the blogs I read - you'll get there! It takes so much time but it sounds like you're starting to rearrange your priorities :)

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  6. I totally relate to this! But I absolutely love your posts - you make me laugh every time I read. Good luck with your new path -- and looking forward to reading more from you!!

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  7. I just started following your blog a couple months ago. I don't usually follow blogs unless I feel drawn to them, yours seemed like a perfect fit :). I've already found inspiration through your posts and made several purchases (and haven't returned any of the gems I bought). I have three little ones at home and although I enjoy fashion I feel stuck in a "Mom-jeans" rut sometimes. Your blog has definitely helped me put outfits together, try new pieces, and discover unique places to shop. You also share yourself through the blog, in a really relatable way, which makes it enjoyable. I don't have a guage of what your blog was before, but I currently think it's awesome, and I'm excited for more!

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  8. I came over from One Little Momma and I'm moving in and not leaving!!! I love your blog, you have a great sense of humor and I love how inappropriate you can be! And yes you look adorable and dress really great. I'm a new blogger and really appreciate the tips you have offered. Some bloggers have not been as helpful. I have a similar sense of humor so it's nice when I find others who can lighten up and talk about bodily functions also!!!! Anyway...thanks thanks thanks. Corki

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  9. Nothing like someone who can be honest and true to self. Go ahead and make 2017 everything you want. I enjoy your posts and style and look forward to read more from you.

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  10. I honestly believe the best blog posts are those that are written or a purpose, rather than an everyday thing, so I'm all up for reading some of your new content!
    www.flareaforte.com

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  11. Yes please! Your blog is still my favorite(: Susan

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  12. YEP! Sounds like you have a lot of change going on in your life and mixing up the blog and trying different things is great! How about a "day in the life" post so we can see more of what you do during the day??!

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  13. Welcome back! I am kind of feeling like that, a bit... I like blogging and the interaction it brings, but it takes a lot of time and many other things need attention outside the web :) But I am not prepared to quit it, not yet :) I liked your post very much!
    DenisesPlanet.com

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  14. I feel the same way. I started my blog years ago and would just write whatever I wanted. I would share posts like "this is what I did this past weekend" and some people even followed and read about it, haha. Then I started gaining followers when I wrote well thought out posts on travel destinations, etc, and I found myself, a year later, only writing those posts and nothing in between. Now I feel no urge to visit my blog and share the ins and outs of my life because I'm certain that 95% of my followers just don't even care. That's a horrible way to feel about a space that used to be such a haven.

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  15. I circle yes!!! Your blog is the first I have ever followed. I found you on Pinterest with your Stitch Fix try ons and then started reading your blog! Can't wait to see the changes because I love what you are doing now!

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  16. Erin I love you ( not in a weird way) but what you do. I look forward to your blog posts and I am definitely circling yes! Just a suggestion, but have you ever thought about doing a live video? I know that would definitely be putting yourself out there, which I know sometimes might be a scary thing with the crazy world and all but just a thought. Keep up the good work!

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  17. I do love getting tips on fashion and sales, but I feel like that's all I see anymore. I'll be honest, I don't shop that often and just work with what I have. I loved your posts on closet organization! Do you read often? I love to see what people are reading! I'm always looking for new, easy recipes too. I really like your posts when you travel or just go out with friends...being weird, I want to see what fancy stuff you eat at restaurants...even if it is Mac and cheese! haha! Keep at it! : )

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  18. Get it, girl! I've always loved reading your words. When you write, it sounds like we're having a conversation and it is so REAL. I love that you're getting ready to devote yourself to it again. Bring it on!

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  19. You go girl! I'm sure it will circle yes :)

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  20. Have you considered linking up with other bloggers for content? I really enjoy reading blogs that show a person's day-to-day life. Not sure if that's what you're interested in writing about...just a thought.

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  21. Yes! I love your fashion posts most of all!

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  22. As much as I love reading posts, I also LOVE your blog for your outfit posts. That's the biggest reason I come here actually. I love your honesty, and we have a similar sense of style so I really enjoy your posts that showcase new purchases or outfits or posts listing out the Nordstrom sale items that are hit or miss. OF course i'll love more readable content, but I am definitely not upset about how your blogging has been lately :) Keep doin' what you're doin'!

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  23. AWW. Sorry it's been a struggle Erin. Just know that you have inspired other people through your writing, and I am sure you will continue to do that. After reading a few blogs for a couple of years, I decided to finally give it a try. If it helps, just know you've been an inspiration to me. :) Thank you!

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I read and appreciate every one of your comments. Thanks for stopping by my space and sharing a piece of yourself on this huge ole internet. I meant that in the least creepy way possible. I'm just good at making everything awkward. Anyhow, thank you for your comments. They make me smile :)