7.26.2014

What Happens When You Don't Enjoy Your Blog Anymore?


This blog and I, we have had quite the weird relationship lately. I keep expecting to show up and have her fulfill all of my writing/blogging/whatever it's called these days/ dreams, however she keeps on disappointing. And the thing I have started to realize is it has nothing to do with her, but rather me [which is always the suckiest of realizations am I right?] Recently I have gotten to a point where I feel as though I have no voice in what I am saying--I open up my planner, it tells me what I need to write about/share/feature, I do it, and then I proceed to the next task on my to-do list. Do you know how weird it feels to write a lifestyle blog that has no real substance of your life? I have said yes to things I should have said no to, I don't spend time daydreaming about the next post topic because it's already accounted for, and this whole thing that I used to be proud of has started to feel like a space that is used solely to share others, not myself. And I'm not okay with it.


It's a hard struggle of finding the balance between creating [and keeping] an engaged readership base vs creating [and keeping] a steady stream of income vs creating [and keeping] a blog that I am excited about. I want all of the above and I believe I can have that, but I don't think I can in my current set-up. Something has to give and I'm not ready to choose this blog. I want to be able to show up to this space, write about whatever it is I feel like writing about, feel challenged creatively, be connected with my readers, and most of all, feel connected with this space again. 

I have always been a firm believer in doing what I love to do. If I don't genuinely enjoy what I am investing the majority of my time into, I don't believe it is worth doing. I know that I truly enjoy blogging [a lot], but I have reached a point where I can say that I no longer do. It's mundane, it's repetitive, it doesn't sparkle in my eyes like it once did, and even I have stopped reading my posts after they are published. I remember the days when I would excitedly ask my husband seconds after I hit publish if he read it yet and what he thinks, I would laugh out loud while typing, I would check my comments or emails expecting to hear how a reader just connected to what I wrote about. None of that happens anymore. I show up, I do what I am here to do, and then I leave. 

All of this to say, I am ready to get back to my blogging roots. Lighten my load a bit on the sponsor home front, write about the real stuff going on in my life and not just which bracelet I am admiring, and return to a space where I am excited to be again. It may take a few weeks to get there but I can proudly say I am on my way... 

To a new beginning...it's you and me blog, lets do this thing. 


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35 comments:

  1. I love the honesty in all of this. I spent a good majority of my evening reading many of your past posts last night. Not sure why. Maybe I wanted to see where you started and how far you'd come. I love your posts now. They make me laugh and add to my shopping addiction daily. But as a reader and spending the time searching your archives, I see exactly where you're coming from with this post. You'll find that girl. We all still love you. Keep doing what you're doing. Find what makes you happy. We're here along the way to cheer you on. P.S. You should really do a confessions post again. Man those were funny to read!!

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    1. this comment...thank you so much Allie! I so appreciate you reading (and for your idea of doing another confession post, consider it coming soon. Your words mean so much :)

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  2. You go girl! I appreciate all you share about blogging, marriage, etc and that the posts are reason. Keep on keeping it real sister!

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  3. I love this post! Being excited about blogging is the key to being happy! Don't worry, Erin, all bloggers go through this slump (which leads to rebranding aka reblog designing that takes 2 weeks like me), and I am definitely excited to see what is to come! Love, Dream, Blog girl. xx

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  4. I'm pretty confident in saying that there are so many bloggers out there, both new and not so new, who look up to you because of how far you've come with your blog. But I'm even more confident in saying that now, after this post, they'll probably look up to you more knowing that even the best of the best can sometimes struggle with their own blog too!

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  5. I'm really excited for this. I can't wait to see the changes.

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  6. Can I love this? I think so many of us look up to you, and I love that you acknowledge that it can all get a little overwhelming and take over. Saying no IS okay sometimes, and I love that you're sharing that. Excited to see what you have in store!

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  7. as a new reader, i can certainly say this post speaks to me about the rawness and realness of blogging! thanks for being genuine in your struggles and changes and also changing course so you feel happy again!

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  8. Aww, thank you for sharing this. I suspect you are not alone in this struggle. I think blogging first and foremost should be enjoyable - maybe work sometimes, just like any job, but enjoyable. I'm still learning what's going to work in my blog too. It's always a process! I look forward to seeing what you do to get your blog to a place you love again.

    Cat
    http://oddlylovely.com

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  9. I go through the same relationship with my blog. I struggled for the longest time on what it really would be. And mine is still just starting out, but I find that when I write from my heart, I'm the most fulfilled. I love being real. I think it's a huge positive that not only fulfills you, but it inspires others. You have such an inspiring happy view on life and that is infectious. Keep doing what you're doing!

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  10. Do you read Hannah Brencher's blog? She's one of my favorite writers, and she posted something on Instagram the other day that I think you might find some comfort in at a time like this.

    (God, I just made her sound like Jesus...)

    "It will be three years this August since More Love Letters began. And somedays I wish there’d been a manual created for all of it, sort of like a warning that says: There will be days when you feel like you are on top of the world and nothing can touch you. And then there will be the days where you feel utterly clueless and you’ll want to curl in a ball and cry. But more than anything, there will be days when you feel like you’ve fallen out of love. That’ll be the hardest thing to swallow: the moments you feel like you don’t love something or someone the way you used to. Maybe that’s the very reason why there can’t be a manual for these sorts of things. Maybe we have to learn-- with just the skin and mess of our own hearts-- that “falling in love” and “staying in love” are two different things. At some point, the falling stops-- your palms stop sweating and the adrenaline of it all ceases-- and the real hustle of commitment has to show up in the place of palpitations. The real romance is in the sacrifice. In the late hours. In the moments no one talks about. In the stuff that doesn’t go viral. In the things you can’t filter. The real romance isn’t in the moments where you’re soaring and every bit of it is glamorous and grammable. The real romance is the time spent with your knees sunk in the dirt, staying in the mud and waiting, even when they’ll only ever talk about the flowers. The world will talk only & endlessly about the flowers. But you? You'll be the lucky one if you stay in love with the digging and the dirt."

    You'll find your way.

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  11. I am a frequent reader but I don't comment often. I always come back because I love your writing voice, your view on things and your honesty. It doesn't matter if you're talking about living dangerously in white pants, drinking wine, or being brave, YOU shine through! No matter what you do, I hope you'll be happy doing it because you deserve it! I'll still be reading either way :)

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  12. You go girl! I truly love your honesty and I am so excited to start reading more post about YOU! 😙 oxox, Amanda

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  13. I love this! I'm so glad you're being honest with yourself and wanting to get back to what you love about blogging! I'll be honest, I haven't read your blog as much lately because I've been missing the connection I used to feel with what you wrote, so I'm excited to read more posts with a little more you in them. :)

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  14. I'm really excited about the changes you will be making. I've followed your blog from the very beginning, and so I know and understand what you say when your focus has been different. I can't wait to keep reading :)

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    1. Oh Chels. We would be blogging and commenting on Erin's post on a Saturday night. Miss you. Love you!!

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  15. Girl. Lady. Woman. E-Dawg.

    This post is so inspiring! You and your bloggity-blog here have been something that I have looked up to/admired/stalked for years, ever since I started my own blog. I'm not gonna lie, that I've noticed some changes recently in your posts and your general LIY vibe. I am so stoked to see you get back to your roots. Your blog roots. You are an inspiring and funny lady who's stories deserve to be told and there is definitely an audience waiting to listen! Props to you and your new-found spark! Go shine your light gurl!

    Take care and can't wait to follow you on your journey!
    Coral

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  16. Awesome. I get your blogged emailed to me, bc you are one of my favorites, since GReader died. (I'm still bitter about that one). Don't feel bad, because my blog has cobwebs, no joke. I don't even know if I posted anything since the New Year. It looks like you have been having tons of fun with friends. Take the time out to enjoy it. It won't last forever (sorry. I sound like doom). Things have a way of changing. I guess I just don't want you to feel like you HAVE to write something. I enjoy your I love this bracelet posts, to your niece posts, to your real estate posts, to why you love your planner posts, to how to make this food but-not-eat-it-before-I-take-a-pic posts, to your deep-thinking about the future posts. I love it because you are a REAL girl. Not some flake that takes pics *every* day. Although you are way prettier and have better taste than some of them (hah!.) I just wanted to let you know that. Take the summer off! We will still be here NEXT month, because the summer is almost over, which *really* sucks.
    -karrie
    ksmith8@emich.edu

    PS: at least your sponsors are funny.

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  17. I am thankful to read this post and hear what you are saying (writing) and I love that you have said (written) it. You were one of my dailies and I can't wait until you are again Xxo.

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  18. So glad to read this post! The Erin I grew to adore has been missed. I have been an avid stalker for several years now, and I have watched your blog grow almost from the beginning! I always looked forward to my daily dose of Erin and your humor that made me cry and spit my wine out ;)! You are an inspiration, and I look forward to reading more about Erin and your life. You will rock it, and you will find that balance you long to have. Your readers love you!!!

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  19. Yay!!! I feel like this has happened to the entire blog universe and I've really cut back on the blog reading/stalking I was doing. Kudos for making a stand!

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  20. Awesome! I'm so excited to see where this takes you! What a great attitude to have and thanks for being so real :)

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  21. I had a moment of panic when I read your post title. I thought: don't leave me Erin!

    I can't wait to keep reading. <3

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  22. Great post! Thank you for being so honest - I think it's awesome that you want to get back to the roots of you and your blog. That's what this is all about, right? Doing something that makes us happy, and maybe in return it can touch others in the process! Keep up the good work!!!

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  23. I for one can't wait. I have always loved your blog. But, I did see where the real you left the blog and the sponsors started. It took me bak a bit. Your personality still shined, but in a different way. I can't way to see where you take this blog.I will never stop reading. You give me my laugh at the end of my day. I just hope that your blog starts to represent you again.

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  24. This is why I toy with sponsorship, but won't fully commit. As much as I'd love to make money from blogging, I KNOW that I will never truly enjoy it if it becomes a 'job'. I've stayed a loyal follower of yours, and although I realized you were missing the original spark I fell in love with, I still loved you and knew that you would get out of this phase sooner or later. You have a writer's soul, so I knew you would get back to your roots when you remembered your original desire ;) Good luck!!

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  25. I really look up to you a lot a lot a lot, Erin. I think it takes so much to stand up (in blog world, so totally metaphorically of course) and acknowledge when you're not happy with your own work and attribute it to falling slightly off your own chosen path. As I grow my own blog, I feel myself struggling with the same thought. I always give my editorial calendar some wiggle room for those spurts of timely inspiration, but if I slip up on any given day and am late with a post or miss a social posting, etc...it eats at you. When I see myself take a sponsorship too many and fall behind on my duties, it sucks. But you have such a strong crowd of LIY believers that will stay with you through your evolution, so don't worry too much. :)
    We all continue to grow and evolve (if we live a truly fruitful life, I think), and our blogs are just an extension of that!

    Excited to see you back to your roots. And for the record, you still always crack me up!

    lovelovelove,
    Erica
    cominguprosestheblog.com

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  26. I love your blog, and I read it daily...actually sometimes I read certain posts more than once because they cracked me up and I can always do with a good belly laugh...seriously! Super honest, I get what you are saying about your blog now, but even more super honest...it hasn't stopped me coming back or recommending your blog to my friends...I guess this whole blogging thing is a continual balance...I always feel like I haven't found my voice yet!

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  27. This is awesome! There's such an expectation as your blog gets bigger to start accepting sponsors and doing more giveaways and reviews, that I do think it becomes more of a chore than a space of creativity. I've been trying to get back to the basics, too. To share what I want for that day and trying not to care if others will like it or not. It's a hard thing to do, though. Good luck finding that balance, because I do love coming here and reading what you have to say:)

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  28. Love you, girl! Glad you've found out how to fix it and make yourself happy with your blog again! :)

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  29. I appreciate this, especially since I feel that way about my blog a lot, too! Thanks for your honesty - stay true to yourself and you'll love it again! :) By the way, I love it no matter what!

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  30. I recently and maybe still am going through the same thing! To remedy this I have started a sort of overhaul of my blog and adding things that feel more "me".

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I read and appreciate every one of your comments. Thanks for stopping by my space and sharing a piece of yourself on this huge ole internet. I meant that in the least creepy way possible. I'm just good at making everything awkward. Anyhow, thank you for your comments. They make me smile :)