It's easy to only see one side of a person through blogging. We are able to edit our lives in this space...it's entirely up to us if we want to share the hard // ugly // lonely // messy times among the happy // exciting // rainbows and unicorn times. Recently I read something here that really resonated with me -- "I hope you don't compare real life to an edited one" and I thought yes...so yes. While I choose to write this blog, I also choose to only share what I want. Ultimately this space is built around happiness. The title alone reflects this as living in yellow is a direct comparison to living with joy. It is not my goal or intention to show up here and complain about everything that isn't going right in my life. It's not a space to spread negative thoughts or feelings. However, I do want this to be a real place. I want you to know that what you struggle with, I most likely do too. I am not ashamed to say that I mess up often, I deal with all sorts of temptations, I feel lonely several times a week, I am learning how to live with anxiety, I get jealous of other's peoples successes on occasion, I am selfish, I question if I am truly happy with where I am at in life right now, I get frustrated with my lack of motivation sometimes, I wish my hair would stop breaking off like crazy, and the list goes on...and on..and on.
But on the reverse side to all of that, I am loved by a heck of a lot of people. I dance in the kitchen just because, I compliment people often because I think it's one of those beautiful things to do for one another, I laugh at nearly everything I say, I am proud of what I have accomplished and I get excited about my future, I love my eyes, I don't embarrass easy, I believe in generosity, and I believe in Jesus. At my very core there is a tremendous amount of joy that I choose to tap into daily. It's not always easy but it's always worth it.
You may not ever hear all parts of my story but it doesn't mean those parts don't exist.
Welcome to my edited life.