2.04.2014

Human Tendencies. I Don't Like Them.

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Today has just been one of those days. One of those days where you have to try to find the joy in things. Some of it has been with petty items like dropping my glove into a mug full of coffee while on the way to work or falling on the ice when getting the mail, while some of it has been truly things to get upset about like people dying way too young and dogs that are like your children having what you think is a seizure and so on. These types of days don't come too often but when they do I often end the day feeling blessed. Blessed because a much needed perspective change happened. I guess I'm coming to this space tonight just feeling rather fed up with our human tendencies. I'm most likely saying this because I feel personally offended, or personally guilty, but regardless, to put it lightly, I feel that it's bullshit how we spend the vast majority of our mental and physical energy. REAL things are happening to REAL people on a daily basis but yet we become so consumed in ourselves, or in others, that we stop paying attention to what truly matters. We spend entirely way too much time seeing the bad, the wrong doings, the things we don't like, etc about people that we miss out on the good. I am 100% guilty of this and it infuriates me. I want to love and be loved, just like the next person, yet somehow we get so caught up in our daily cycles of whatever it is that we forget this common denominator. We justify saying hurtful things about the next person because of this, that, or whatever it may be when in all honesty, most of the time it is just to make ourselves feel better. 

Recently I have found myself wishing time and time again that I wouldn't have said words that I just spoke, actions that I wish I didn't just do, and so on. And it's days like these that make me remember how fragile and insanely important each minute we are given is. 

I want to use those minutes for good. 

Don't you? 

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18 comments:

  1. I couldn't agree more. I had the worst day today and was treated like crap at work. I wish everyone would read and see this post! Everyone remains focused in the negative instead of the positive. I sit here with a black and blue back side because I fell on ice but all I thought to myself was I'm glad I didn't break anything! I try to be as optimistic as possible and I wish everyone could do the same!

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  2. Yes! You are absolutely right, and I am just as guilty as the next person. Our self absorbed human tendencies can get the best of us, and I hate that something has to happen before we get a much needed change in perspective. I do think negativity ultimately comes from a place of insecurity and pride, and the only thing that can help that is being focused on Christ and not ourselves. No one deserves it, but we all need a whole lot of grace!
    Eva Marie

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  3. You are so right. I see it in myself daily. Recently I wrote a joy list to to remind myself what brings joy to my heart and that God has given me SO much. Even the smallest chocolate chip cookie I may take for granted. It's the little things!

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  4. "Recently I have found myself wishing time and time again that I wouldn't have ..[done] actions that I wish I didn't just do" .. I feel that way right this second. About 3 minutes after eating three tablespoons of peanut butter right out of the jar.

    Just trying to lighten the mood a little bit ;) But it's true. I hear you, and I feel your perspective in the most serious of ways. Coming off Whit (I wore yoga pants)'s latest post, I'm reminded of those that brought her down. Why do they spend their time that way - to bring down those they dont even know, and just for the sake of doing it? What the freak is that about?

    In any case, you're one of the really good ones. Keep at it.

    PS - so sorry about the dog in your anecdote above. One of my fur babes is aging and it shows, and it is breaking my heart. I feel your pain.

    Toasts from my peanut butter filled spoon,
    Christine

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  5. I actually just recently wrote a post similar to this, that is currently hiding in my drafts. I have been lamenting the fact that I am such a selfish person so much of the time, and sometimes it just hits me like a brick and I hate it. Loving my neighbor has been on my mind a lot lately. Defining "my neighbor" has been on my mind lately. When I remember that "my neighbors" includes the coworkers I don't especially like...I am humbled (and convicted). Thank you for sharing your thoughts, Erin.

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  6. This is SO how I've been feeling lately. It is so easy to get caught up in things that a) don't make us happy, and b) are completely unimportant in the grand scheme of things. TRUTH.

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  7. I don't know what it is about Tuesdays. Maybe they're the new Monday. Sometimes I say things I wish I could take back, too. But I also said it at that time for a reason. It helps me to think about it. As unpleasant as it might be. There's a lesson to be learned. Seems like you might have learned yours already though;) And sometimes a simple but genuine apology can really clear the air. I'm sorry to hear about your pup. I'd be terrified if that had happened. Hoping s(he)'s doing well though!

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  8. You spoke to my heart tonight, friend. We are way too caught up in our lives that we forget there are other lives around us and life is happening! Thank you for pouring your heart out into mine xo

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  9. So true! Says like this are just no fun at all! Hoping your week gets better :)

    agirlandhersparkles.blogspot.com

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  10. Agree completely. It's amazing how selfish, self-absorbed, and really - ignorant - we've become. I don't think it's intentional, but imagine what a wonderful place we'd be in if we all put a little effort into being more understanding, faithful, and giving.

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  11. A critical spirit seems to be a very natural state for us, doesn't it? Just as you say, trying to make ourselves feel better. But the catch is that it really doesn't make us feel better, but just the opposite. There is nothing like contentment to satisfy the soul.. if we can find it!

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  12. I can completely relate to this feeling Erin! There are so many times when I get this same punch in the gut. Why did I say that? Why did I act out in that way? Why am I upset over this? Why can't I just let go of the hurt or pain that I'm feeling so that I can find peace in life and so I can release my anger that I have with this person in order to continue the relationship without scarring it worse. I want to be a loving person, but honestly, I can be judge-y. I don't like that person when I see her... I don't respect that person. Thanks for sharing your heart during this time, I know it's not usually easy. I need this though. I needed the reminder that I don't have to say everything that comes to my mind, I have an abundance of love to give and I need to give it instead of hoard it. Thanks! :)

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  13. very well said and I totally agree

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  14. I'm sorry for your loss, and I hope your dog is ok! :(

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  15. Wow Erin...Thank you for sharing such poignant and real words. It's time for us (definitely including myself) to Evolve.

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  16. I was thinking about this just yesterday as well. Too bad I didn't do my daily blog reading or I would have seen this post. I agree 100% with each and every word. I found an iPhone called Happier last night and it's literally all about joy and recording the good things that happen to you everyday. We are allowed a bad day but keeping perspective is so important. Great Post!

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  17. Yes. Truth. All of it. I've recently noticed how I took for granted how good I have it. With the hubby in the hospital-life just f-ing sucks right now. I just have to keep thinking that this is all temporary great. Thank you for this post. Catching up on your week.

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I read and appreciate every one of your comments. Thanks for stopping by my space and sharing a piece of yourself on this huge ole internet. I meant that in the least creepy way possible. I'm just good at making everything awkward. Anyhow, thank you for your comments. They make me smile :)