8.19.2013

On Producing vs Consuming

i have been obsessed with these photos since i took them last year.
thank you stranger for allowing your talents to spark mine.
I have been wrestling with an internal battle lately that stems from this whole blogging thing. The thing with being a blogger (or really any role in this life) is that you are expected to be constantly producing. Content, photos, ideas, recipes, crafts, funny stories, the list goes on and on. And as much as I like the challenge and opportunity to do so, sometimes I just want to be a consumer. I want to go to a gathering with friends or family and not pull out my camera immediately but rather sit and soak up the moments with my own eyes and not through a camera lens. Instead of writing, I want to read what others (much smarter, funnier, and thoughtful) have to say. Heck, even in my car recently I've allowed myself to just shut up and listen to the real artists who are singing the songs. Turns out they sound an insane amount better than I which is rather disappointing because I was convinced I was a deadpan for Rihanna. 
I've been wondering what was "off" lately for me in this whole blogging thing--and as I sat down here tonight it all clicked. Right now I am more in bystander mode. To you other bloggers out there--do you ever find yourself tired of sharing? We put ourselves out there, a lot. It's a choice we have all made and it's an honor really that others take heart to what we produce, but sometimes, like right now, I just don't feel like producing a darn thing. I spent hours reading a book tonight. Words that somebody other than myself wrote. Gosh that felt good. Maybe it's because I was reading 50 Shades of Grey that it felt so good (awkward weird joke I know, just go with it) but for a few hours tonight I was so much happier being on the other side.
Can we just be real and admit that it's not always our responsibility to entertain others? We all need a good dose of soaking up what others have laid before us rather than searching and searching some more for something that we can share ourselves. So that's where I'm at tonight. In consumption mode. Eager to jump on Bloglovin' and read blogs upon blogs I haven't caught up on in weeks, to listen to Pandora quietly in the background, and not check Instagram every twenty four seconds to see if I have any new notifications. 
Thank you to each one of you who create great things so that the lazy ones like myself can entertain ourselves tonight. Cheers to consumption. Producing, I'll see you tomorrow. Or maybe next week. But most likely tomorrow. Well, depending on if I get lost in my book again. Things aren't looking in your favor...
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37 comments:

  1. This is something I struggle with frequently too. Especially with Alea. I don't want to always be the mama behind the camera lens, I want to be in front of it, sharing the memories with her. Blogging just makes it even harder, doesn't it? Just do what you can when you can. I know I'll keep coming back for more Living in Yellow!

    Chelsea from Sunny with a Chance of Sprinkles

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  2. I just took a three week break from blogging because I felt the same way! It gave me insane anxiety, yet I've never had anxiety problems before? I just felt so much pressure to write, to have something to say, and to not feel inspired just made me feel worse! So I packed it in for a bit, only to come back much sooner than anticipated. I feel like I'm in a much better place now!
    Keep reading 50 Shades ;) I loved the ending of the series.

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  3. Amen! That's how I felt all summer :) Glad to be back blogging, but I definitely needed the break.

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  4. This is exactly what has been on my mind lately! I have so many unfinished books (from other people) that I want to read. Thanks for the inspiration, friend. I shall consume someone else's creativity tonight. xoxo

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  5. I find I go through phases, where I just want to just unplug and not do anything but watch reality shows and not connect with anyone. Then, like magic, I get my love back and want to get back on the proverbial horse and be back in the game, so to speak. Quality over quantity, right? I've let more go this summer and it feels good. Blogging what I like when I want and not forcing myself to do anything.

    You get yourself happy, friend, we'll be here waiting when you you get your mojo back (whether it be tomorrow or a month form now.) P.S. I love your truth posts... I mean, angst makes blogging more honest, doesn't it?

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  6. Holy hell. Story of my life at this exact moment. I may just copy and paste this into my own blog because I have nothing else to produce either.

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  7. Often. I take breaks when I feel that way.

    www.jaimelovesstuff.com

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  8. I completely agree! There are many days when I just need to read what others write instead of writing myself. Sometimes I think that blogging allows me to experience more, because I am always looking for new topics to write about. But, other times, I feel like I'm looking for the next great outfit, photo, or activity and miss what is happening right in front of me.

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  9. I've been slow to blog this week but quick to read the blogs I love which has sent me to new blogs I now crush all over. The blog world is constantly growing and crawlng out from behind the keyboard is sometimes just what we need to refresh our own thrill in it!

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  10. Once again, you've hit the nail on the head! I've found myself wanting to be a lot more present lately and I think a bunch needed producing break is necessary. I'm going to finish my drafts out for the rest of the week so I can do just that!

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  11. I feel like it's difficult for me to produce lately because I just feel like I'm behind on everything (back to school/fall trends, etc.) and like nothing I do is worthwhile. I am not feeling particularly confident in my blogging (and I'm also in the middle of moving back home after college... ugh) so it's just easier to live life and read other "better" blogger's work. I really want people to like my content and get excited about what I have to say, but it's so hard when it seems like other people will never think of me/my blog the same way I think about my favorite blogs/bloggers! I'm really trying to get everything in my life organized and together this week so I can jump right into producing great content for my readers and interacting with my favorite bloggers.

    Erin, I think you are really great and you produce some really great posts - especially because you write down to earth, real posts like these (not to say that a post documenting say, an OOTD or a delicious recipe isn't "real", but one that digs at what is underneath the surface and behind the scenes of a blog". Thanks for being amazing!

    xx, Amy

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  12. Oh, yes there are days that I think I don't want anyone to know anything else about me.

    Heidi’s Wanderings

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  13. Totally get it. I liken it to parenting...you feel like you have to be "switched on" all the time, but there are days when my kid comes and tells me she's bored and straight up I tell her "I love you, but it's not my responsibility to entertain". Sometimes you just wanna sit back and chill.

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  14. I hear ya on this one!! It's such a hard balance. Sometimes all I need is a break to get inspired again!

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  15. I think I have this in reverse. I spend so much time reading the awesome blogs and wishing I could write more. I often skip a day writing and just go around reading blogs.

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  16. As a new blogger, I often feel this way. I feel like I need to read 200 other blogs daily. I am not sure where the balance is - I am still searching! Susan

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  17. This is exactly why I stopped posting everyday. I realized I was about to burn out. It feels good to not be stressing about OMG I HAVE TO POST!! I have also decided to stop checking my stats because really it's not about that.

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  18. I read those books in 1 1/2 weeks! Guess we're both suckers for book porn! I spend my breakfast time reading other blogs and write mine in the afternoon. That way I get a little bit of both worlds!

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  19. YES! I've been struggling with WANTING to blog and HAVING to blog here lately myself. I'm kind of sick of having to carry around my camera everywhere on the off chance I might encounter something blog worthy. My friggin' shoulders hurt, ok? :) I'm also tired of trying to be clever on the days when all I really want to do is watch hours of Real Housewives. I say go do whatever you want to do and if it happens to be blogging, then blog! I've noticed my content is better, more cohesive, when I take a break and let the writing happen organically (i.e. when I've had my fill of the Housewives). Glad to know I'm not the only blogger who just wants to enjoy life and other's content rather than fixing up my own all the time.

    Go eat you some mac & cheese and let it be, girl. I'm right there with ya. Oh and if you need a suggestion on a good blog to read, I think I might know of one you'd like. <------ ;) xo

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  20. I love consuming what you produce (does that sound weird??) but everyone needs a break now and again.

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  21. I have been struggling with this a lot lately! It has been hard for me to come up with content to post and because of that I have been putting a lot of pressure on myself! I just need to let go and let things flow and know that its ok if I don't have anything to post about.

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  22. I hear & agree with what you're saying! Last week & this week too, I just didn't feel like writing. And more than that, I really didn't feel like I had much to offer - other than that we're still doing house projects. I feel like people get tired (or will) of hearing about the same old, same old so I figure best just to not write anything than to write something half hearted or lacking of descent content. Plus, it's good to be a consumer & soak up the goodness & creativity of others for a bit!

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  23. I've been feeling like this a lot lately too. Granted, I'm in producing overload this month because I'm doing Vlog Every Day in August. So I have that on top of my "usual" creating. I love to write and create art, but lately I've been loving just reading or listening to something too.

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  24. I'm more of a consumer. I read blogs daily, but I don't post/produce content of my own nearly enough or consistently in order to grow my blog. Usually I'm okay with that and other times I'm not. But then again, I blog for me, right?

    Thanks for sharing!

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  25. YES! This is exactly how I've been feeling lately!! So glad to see it written down in words that make sense! I was feeling really down about it all but this gives me some room to relax!

    xo-lianne
    lulabelleblog.com

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  26. Everyone needs a break! And deserves one. Take one and don't you dare feel guilty.

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  27. But yet, you still created something in being honest. It's true, sometimes you just want to consume and that's OK!

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  28. Oh my gosh you are so dead on. Sometimes the idea of blogging is SO overwhelming to me and makes me want to just shut down. And usually the moment I step away from it and live life is the moment it seems to get better. Ahhh this pressure we all put on ourselves!

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  29. Erin, I completely agree. The pressure I feel to produce sometimes, not just in blogging but in all areas, just gets to be soooo much sometimes. And now I'm feeling even more silly for sending that email to you a few weeks ago suggesting you write your LIY happiness book.... Consume my friend. Enough with the pressure to constantly put out. Errr... not put out, you know what I mean.

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  30. Well thank you for this..as if my husband doesn't tell me enough just to enjoy the moments...We all need to hear this..not just read it. On days when I really rack my brain to "post something" and nothing comes up? Then I chalk it up to a loss and pour me a cold one while I take a night off to snuggle. Yes, we snuggle in the Bracco house ;)

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  31. Oh sweetie this is so true! In fact i took a long break just to figure out the "why" i was even blogging and how i can blog "my way" . I knew there had to be a way to share and still not get burned out. To write with joy and still be authentic about it. I always enjoy reading your witty and fun blog post and also the more personal ones. Your doing a great job honey!:)

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  32. i hope u find a good balance soon. it is a must. i'm working on it myself. keep the faith & walk on. no worries, right?!! ( :

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  33. It's gotta be a lot of pressure when you have a big blog. Part of me feels I'd love to have a big blog but more and more I'm realizing just how content I am with my little space where nobody really expects anything grand from me. Not that I'm not writing good stuff. I'm gonna say I am! I just don't have that added burden of expectation or a million followers. Don't beat yourself up about it. You are amazing at what you do and whenever you do it people will read. I just have to say it. 50 Shades of Grey was awful!!! At least for me. I had to skim that last half.

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  34. Enjoy some free time! And if you haven't already check out Sylvia Day's series Bared to You!

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  35. I hear ya. I sometimes don't "have time" to blog because I want to read everyone else's blogs first...

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  36. It makes sense. Sometimes the creative juices don't flow, and other times we all need a break. Besides, you can't be inspired 24/7. You need to let yourself be inspired, and inspiration comes from reading, living, experiencing.

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  37. love this post - I am totally in soak up mode right now too!

    xx
    Here&Now
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