We Are All Addicts To Some Degree

I think it's a sign you need to slow down when the first second of complete silence paired with no agenda throws you into a panicky fidgety fit. I'm just kinda curious when not having anything to do for 20 minutes suddenly seems like a curse to my existence? It could be the onslaught of hormones (I mean seriously period, when are you going to do ONE good thing for us ladies?) or it could be the fact that I feel like I haven't "stopped" in the last 240 hours, but whatever it is I'm not sure I like it. Or maybe I love it? It's this whole stopping to be still and letting your mind think on it's own thing. Due to it's unfamiliarity in my parts, I find it rather uncomfortable. So often I don't allow myself to get to this place because I am afraid of what I'll discover. Say for instance having to think about the fact that my meals today alone consisted of a giant pretzel with cheese, Wendy's french fries, chips and salsa, and easy mac. Nobody should have to deal with THAT reality. Or what if we discover that the daily choices we are making (or are not making) are taking us in a direction that we never intended to walk to in the first place? It's this uncomfortable silence that forces you to actually think.. 

Instead of just dealing with it, we drown ourselves in another hour scroll through Instagram, call up ladies to get a drink, lose ourselves in our children's projects, or turn up the radio so loud we forget our brain is actually trying to tell us something other than "girl you look good when you back that thang up...". All of this got me thinking--aren't we all a bunch of addicts to some degree? It may not be alcohol or drugs we turn to but we all have that "thing" that helps us escape the fidgety feelings we get when we are all alone. We find it easier to not deal than actually deal with the real deal. We say things like "tomorrow I'll eat better..." "next week I'll spend my time more wisely.." or if you are like me, you shout "YOLO!" over and over again to justify why it's okay you are running on fumes 24/7. 

I'm ready to slow my roll a bit. To get to a place where sitting still at 7 pm on a Thursday evening won't cause me to break out in a sweaty nervous mess because isn't there SOMETHING that I should be doing instead? There is so much beauty in not feeding the addictions but rather feeling the reality. 

So that's where I'm at tonight. Remembering I have goals, dreams, hopes, and all that good other stuff that my little addictions forget to remind me of. 

And for the record--snapping fresh green beans is actually way more therapeutic than a glass of wine. 
Well, maybe. You know what. Never mind. 



  1. I hear ya.....I'm an addict to Vampire Diaries and VanillaBean icecream with magic shell (wonder why I can't loose the baby weight *shakes head*).

    SO TRUE everything in here.....I think I must have forgotten something at 10pm when the babies asleep, the house is semi picked up and I can't stop panicking because I know that there is something that I should be doing to occupy my time.

    I say EFF that. Relax. And eat the icecream.

  2. I just got addicted to orange is the new black.... Great show but another "time waster"

  3. I am completely addicted to Gossip Girl at the moment, as well as eating as unhealthy as possible even though I vow, every day, that I will eat healthier tomorrow. I'm also obsessed with making lists.. Too bad I'm not addicted to cleaning house!

  4. TRUTH!!!

    I meditate, which is really rejuvenating and quiets down the mind. However, I find that when I'm running ragged, meditation is the thing I need most...but the thing I want least. It's so hard to break that cycle of constantly having something to distract you. But hey--recognizing the problem is the first step, right ;)


  5. I've had the same feeling for a LONG time now, and I just did a post about how I'm really considering a minimalistic approach to my life, complete with downsizing pretty much everything we own.

    If you care to distract yourself from the fidgeties and read the post, here's the link:


  6. I've been feeling the same way recently, too. Feeling the need to slow down and enjoy what's going on in my life, even though not all of it (aka job searching) isn't always making me too happy. Thanks for the inspiration to be okay with taking a breather every now and then. Happy weekend!


  7. Good for you! I realized last night, while watching YET ANOTHER special on the royal baby that there is WAY too much "filler" in my life! We all could use some bean snapping.

  8. Erin, thank you for this. I have written about this feeling as well and find that it's a terrifying feeling to be anxious around your own thoughts - your own self.

    I commend you for pointing out all of our addictions and would love to work with you to create a way for the blogging community to 'slow down together'. I already have some ideas for connection and collaboration to reinforce self-reflection and for lack of a better word and because it SHOULD be a good thing, alone time.

    I'd love to work with you. Let me know. Sheismoments@gmail.com And, if not, I'll be sending you some calming, happy, positive thoughts. Because we all need those.



  9. Being still and quiet is so "crazy" in our culture, but it is SO important!!

  10. This is the best post ever. It screams truth! At least on my end.. I really do think that when reality is trying to stare us in the face, we start to think "okay, maybe if I start doing something and ignore it, it will go away.." :)

    So. Thank you. For this post. To remind us to slow down and just enjoy life.

    ..and this is the best song ever, too. Love me some Zac Brown.

  11. So true! Love the reminder to slow down. Everyone needs to do that more often.

  12. It is definitely good to unplug and just 'be' sometimes! I don't think our society is set up in a way that most people feel like it is okay or acceptable to not be running and going 24/7, no matter the stage you are at in life.

  13. Random, but I saw this shirt on Pinterest and thought of you!


  14. This is right where I am at the moment. I feel like I could have written this post. Trying to realize that it's ok that I don't respond to clients at 9pm on a Tuesday night. Or that it's ok to not work on the weekends. This morning I was freaking out because I was planning on spending the entire afternoon with my best friend from college and then my fiance and I were headed to a concert. I kept telling myself that I was going to be so far behind with work if I took the time off even though working from home makes it flexible to do that. And here I am filling time now commenting on your blog. I've been working on it though. Because the reality is that you do only live once, so if you smash all this stuff into your daily life then it becomes not really living at all.

    On the other hand, I did something this week that I haven't done in a long while. I didn't blog all week. And you know what? I don't feel bad about it one bit!

  15. I don't know how many times I point this out to people when they are judging others and their bad habits. Everyone makes choices and everyone has addictions. I'm terrible at not being happy unless I'm busy. I think I need to learn how to slow down as well. :)

    - Pam
    Stolen Moments

  16. Slowing down seems like the best idea ever. Way too often I'm just moving from one task to the next to the next to the next and before you know it, it's the end of July.

    Wait... it IS the end of July so now I know it's time to slow down. Better late than never?

  17. I love this post... I was there and have slowly but surely found peace with the quiet. It's actually quite a lovely place to be, but hard to get there. We're all so caught up with the immediate... technology and FB and Twitter and Instagram... it all makes it too addicting to be plugged in ALL the time, that all of a sudden it's a scary place to be when we're not in tune every second of the day. But it gets better and less scary and being still and quiet is a really great place to be!

  18. This is so true!! On days when I tell my self I need to spend more time doing XYZ, but then I spend an hour looking at all social media then realize why I feel so overwhelmingly busy all the time. That time could have been spent working toward something or thinking about where to go next. It is like I don't want to think heavy thoughts or make decision so I delay. Here is to more quiet time.

  19. There is so much beauty in not feeding the addictions but rather feeling the reality.

    I love love love this thought. Perfection!

  20. I totally agree with this! It's why I have pulled back from blogging lately. It has begun to dominate too much of my life. PS. I totally love snappin' beans ;)

  21. I would stick with I'm an Organizing Junkie, it is so full of information.


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