I am officially four weeks into this whole working for myself thing and a question a lot of people have been asking is "so how is it??!" Well, it's everything really. Has it been all rainbows? No. Has it felt like the best thing ever occasionally? Absolutely. Has it been a hard transition? To put it lightly. So back to what I said, it's everything [aka all of the emotions].
The past few weeks of my life have went a little bit like this -- quit two jobs, hire two new employees, lose a dog, get sick with bronchitis, buy two new dogs, rent an office space, try and furnish the office, clean up doggy accidents more times than I care to count, get all sorts of crazy anxious, take anxiety meds, calm down, start working out of the office, yell "stop chewing that!" ten thousand times a day, get excited about the future, spend a few days in Texas, plan a trip to New York, cut the number of showers I used to take by about 50%, lose 5 pounds from stress and here we are ;)
Basically I'm just excited about the 5 pounds.
Every day that passes, however, I am loving it more and more and am quite happy with my decision to pursue this whole blogging thing [I should probably start referring it as a job rather than a thing]. The hardest transition for me has been going from working three jobs with a constant feeling of "crap, I've got to rush to get to work and from there I have to rush to get home and then I have to get this done then that's gotta get done and AHHHH HOW CAN I GET IT ALL DONE?!?!" to "Okay, nowhere I need to be today - what do I want to accomplish?" This has been both equally wonderful and detrimental to my spirit. I know that being a little less chaotic is good, but man it's hard to make the change from always being busy to like 40% busy and still feeling valued and fulfilled. It's also hard to not be super needy from your husband the minute he walks in the door from work because OH MY GOSH IT'S A HUMAN!!!!!
On the reverse though, It's truly incredible to me that I get to do what I love on a daily basis. No more waking up to an alarm [you guys, this is worth it alone], having a glass of wine at 4 o'clock on a Thursday just because or meeting up with a girlfriend at HomeGoods on a Tuesday morning to do a little retail damage. I guess it's also great because I get to do some work occasionally that I enjoy as well ;)
An internal question that I've been struggling with over the past month though is "Why aren't you blogging more now that you blog full-time?!" Well Erin, for starters, read paragraph above and then extend a little bit of grace to yourself. Additionally, I spend much of my day on Facebook, probably more than I care to admit, but that's where a lot of you are. So when I get sucked into all things FB I forget about this space. No bueno, I know. Ultimately I'm hoping to create a schedule for my life. Planning things like working out, getting groceries, writing blog posts regularly, meet with my team on certain days and maybe, just maybe, consider making dinner from time to time. It's amazing how the less you have to do with your days the less you get done. Trying to not just sit around and waste time [ie: watch IG stories] when not having a strict schedule is a s-t-r-u-g-g-l-e.
Now that life is starting to feel a tad bit more calm again, I can't wait to take the next steps here. To officially own my career as a blogger and hopefully be a valuable resource and friend to many of you. I saw this quote this morning and there was so much yes that resounded in my head when reading it..
"Maybe it won't work out. But maybe seeing if it does will be the best adventure ever."
Here's to finding out...